A Moment of Honesty

My gosh. I have struggled with my weight since I was younger. I've never been satisfied with my appearance and have yo-yo'd up and down (mostly up) for as long as I can remember. It's been difficult too because I can't pinpoint that there was anything that I was doing wrong. I wasn't eating fast food all the time, I was eating a pretty well balanced diet (as balanced as a girl can get when she only likes the following fruits and veggies - corn, green beans, berries, green apples, grapes, and bananas), but I couldn't control the weight. I've been working with my doctor on this for over a year and we've been stumped. She tested a bunch of things, which came back normal.

On my most recent visit she did labs on my cholesterol and something called C reactive proteins. Both are high. We all know what the cholesterol is but I was stumped on the C reactive proteins. What a high reading on that means is that my body is essentially inflamed. I asked her how something like that happens and she said people who have auto-immune diseases tend to show high levels. You know, things such as lupus, psoriasis, or eczema. I stopped her there and explained that I had psoriasis on my scalp from the time I was 11 until a few years ago. Since it had been years since I had psoriasis, I never mentioned it on my medical history. At that point all the pieces clicked for her. She said that the inflammation can have a negative effect on your metabolism and thus people with said inflammation also can have a difficult time losing weight. It also made sense for me because around 5th grade is when I remember first starting to struggle with my weight. She put me on a statin which I wasn't thrilled about, but all of the holistic approaches I had tried for the past 5 years hadn't really worked at lowering my cholesterol. With the inflammation stuff thrown into the mix, I figured maybe now was the time to say okay to it.

I've been on it for almost a month. Since then I've also rejoined Weight Watchers. I've already lost 6 pounds in 2 weeks. The last time I was on WW, it took 3 months to lose 6 pounds. So here is where the moment of honesty comes in. I'm going to start posting my losses (and any gains) on the blog. Not that I don't think I will keep with the program, but putting it out there for the world to see just adds another layer of personal accountability. I feel like this time, the goal is actually in reach.